Love

Forests

We are living in the forest. The weather here is bad; but surly, cold clouds seem to make things special.The next change in the forest will bring an exiting type of permanence.

I have been making things that don't quiet fit together. These sculptures are sitting on my desk, their segments jutting out at uncomfortable angles when they should be smooth, seamless surfaces. Art always seems to be an effort of control. Not control of materials, which are perfect, but control of my own body. One day I hope to fully understand my hands, my movements.

I am fitting many things together. I am trying to form objects to suit all nooks and crannies. Some of these objects don't quite fit, but they are still beautiful, sublime. At times like this all I can do is know these objects, these feelings. Have them fill me, and engorged in beauty and love I am ultimately happy.

matching colours

Walking, going to work, meeting friends - it feels like I am falling in love every day. How lucky it is to make art and to love. These actions should reflect one another. I wonder how closely art making can be integrated with all other actions of my life. Sometimes I see it happening in other peoples lives, like a girl I know who's art collection is comprised of gifts given by lovers and friends.

I am finishing some work for Crush, a group show from here and there. I'll include some images the next post.

Songs to Play on a Date

A short list I have been thinking about The Rolling Stones - Play With Fire    2:14 The Beatles - I Want You (She's So Heavy)    7:47 Diana Ross and the Supreames - My World Is Empty Without You    2:55 LCD Sound System - I Can Change    5:55 Wildbirds and Peacedrums - There Is No Light    2:46 Bee Gees - Stayin' Alive    4:45 Queen/Bowie - Under Pressure    4:02 David Bowie - Ashes to Ashes    4:23 David Bowie - The Prettiest Star    3:09

Because you need to know what you are getting into.

saying goodbye under enormous skys

I like to travel away from something and towards something else. This can be a person or place or atmosphere or shop, it doesn't matter as long as you do it with romance and melancholy.

Saying goodbye is not just loss, it also accompanies change; a passage to somewhere new. "Goodbye is a little like dying", but without it you're incomplete and cold long afterwards. I can't stand short goodbyes.

A friend said the year is finally beginning. It's about time.

mature, happy, sweet and vain

I have been thinking about love and being in love. I feel strongly I am in love right now, though it is just a feeling and I can't pin it to anyone. This is okay, I think we should always be in love; with someone or no-one, only in love. It is a sad and merry feeling. "A pain stabbed my heart, as it did every time I saw a girl I loved going in the opposite direction in this too-big world."

I'll be back in Canberra soon. It is time to start working again. I'm going to set up a temporary studio in my living room and paint from there. It may be catastrophic.